Anger

Hello Blogger fans, I find more than ever I have a hard time to figure what to blog about or more so what I feel like revealing to those that read my blog. I have plenty of things that run around in my brain that I think I should jot down to make get it out of my system...Anyways...

I know that I have an anger problem. It's something I've had as far back as I can remember. The littlest thing can cause me to "boil" and once that happens I just let it out. Well that isn't the case. I seem to be able to keep it under control at work. I get some of the dumbest people asking the dumbest questions and I take it with stride and don't let them get to me and I don't get mad, I sit there and answer them. No sarcasm, no anger just me giving stellar customer service. Why can I do it for people I never see but in my everyday boring life, I can go off at the drop of the hat?

I've been listen to these podcasts on Buddhism, on being mindful (which I guess I don't get). Then there's this whole entire meditation thing that I don't get. When I sit and try and do the meditation thing, my head gets filled with tons of thoughts, thoughts that I can't turn off.

Maybe I'm doing something wrong?